Consider the lillies

 Consider the Lillies is my very favorite hymn. I listen to it every sunday. I listened to it this week a lot and was able to feel very close to my Savior and it came to me during lots of spiritual experiences this week. From my very last zone conference to general conference to tear filled lessons to answers to prayers. My heart is very full of gratitude this week. I love in the song consider the lillies where it says "He calms the lillies of the field" I felt that this week. He calms my heart as I prepare to come home and finish my mission and as I start my new mission. 

Zone conference 

Nobody can prepare you for your last zone conference and outgoing testimony. Like seriously, the feelings are just all over the place. I remember sitting in the chapel listening to outgoing testimonies of my biggest examples and bestest friends thinking how I want to be like them because they are like Jesus Christ. I also remember thinking oh my that will never come, I won't be sharing my testimony anytime soon its so far away. It definitely came, it came fast and the feelings are surreal but most of all it's happy/sad. I don't like to use bittersweet because it's not bitter and it's not sweet, it's happy and it's sad. It was good to see my sweet friends and be able to learn more about this great work and how I can better myself as a set apart  representative of Jesus Christ. We talked about consecration and obedience as well as kindness and love. I think these four things along with many more make up a pretty dang good disciple of Jesus Christ. I'm grateful for what I learned. I'm grateful that I was able to share my heartfelt and simple testimony of my Savior. I am a witness that he does live and he is so merciful and kind. He's helped lift up my cross and has helped me become the person I am today. I owe that to Him. I owe so much to Him. I love Him. 

Ana

We have been teaching our sweet friend Ana for a while. She is a younger mom with 2 teenage girls and the most insane 3 year old you will ever meet. Like seriously, I have never met a more insane child in my life, he scares me. But Ana is such a good mom and is just the sweetest human. We had a very spiritual lesson with her this week. She has expressed some hard things she's gone through and how the guilt can be so heavy to hold. She told me how she just wanted to be better and that she's trying so hard to come closer to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I told her that Jesus Christ is the source of healing and light. I promised her that through his atoning sacrifice she would be healed, I knew it because I've experienced it for myself. My amazing companion then came in and invited Ana to be baptized and to follow in the footsteps of Jesus Christ, to find healing and peace and comfort through Him. Ana said it's something she wants. We have to do a couple things before she can get baptized but she is so amazing and ready and I am so excited for her. Ana is my miracle. 

He answers 

If you didn't listen to General Conference, you missed out. Go watch it. I'm grateful for the inspiring words and revelation we recieved this weekend. I am grateful for the personal revelation that I recieved for my friends and for myself. President Jefferey R. Holland gave a very beautiful talk about prayer. I've learned a lot about prayer on my mission and know it is such a sacred and special gift we have been given. The past 2 transfers I have dedicated time every single night to pray out loud in my closet (lol) and it has changed my life! I've seen a difference in my life from it, I've noticed how much closer I feel to my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I feel closer to my Heavenly angels and know that they are with me. I loved what Elder Holland said in his talk about how all prayers are answered, ALL. He said "It is for reasons known only to God why prayers are answered differently than we hope-but they are heard, and they are answered according to His unfailing love and timetable." GOD IS LOVE. He answers every prayer because He is love. I know what it's like to feel like your prayers are hitting the ceiling and hitting you back on the head but I promise it's not true. I testify along with this beloved apostle that your prayers are heard and they will be answered in His timing according to His perfect plan. I'm still waiting for my answers, but I have hope in my waiting because I know someday I will get my answer. I was touched by the words of Elder Holland, I know that the power of prayer works. I know that no matter what, God wants to hear from you. If it's been a few days, weeks, months, or even years since you've prayed, I would invite you to do so. I promise that you will feel the love that God has for you as you pray. He will never turn you away, he will never not hear what you have to say. He loves you and he knows you perfectly. Trust in that. 

I love you friends! Every single one of you! 

God is so good!

Jesus is love! 

♡ hermana bb